Belly-time

I had a bad weekend. Started out on Friday, when I "decided" to fall into this foul mood and be grumpy and ungrateful and discontented and and and... [you get my drift]. A couple little things started me out on the wrong foot on Friday morning and it just went down from there. And you know how it is. Once you start sinking, you are done for the day. Well... my depression lasted all weekend. PMS also didn't help things in the right direction... So basically I was sick for 3 days. Inside and out. I couldn't but think of Jonah in the Belly [although my "belly-time" maybe wasn't just as dramatic]. Nevertheless it ended in a similar way. Me, coming to the Father and surrendering.

I got a book in the mail on Friday. [or Thursday] [Thanks to my wonderful Ladies Bible Study group back home in Michigan who are studying a book this year, and our pastor's wife and good friend, Cathy for sending me a copy].
[By the way, it costs way too much to mail stuff between Italy and the US, so extra Thank You to you, Cathy!]
The book: Lord, only you can change me by Kay Arthur.
My heart is full, I am so thankful. God gave me this book exactly at the moment in my life when I was so sick of what I saw in my own heart. I need a change! Desperately!
I want to grow, be more like Jesus, and not be a nag and a grumpy, discontented wife and mama.
I am actually incredibly grateful for every single thing in my life! 
So Lord, here I am, change me! Pleeeease!!!